Can you really be mad at a super cute baby without pants? I hope not! Sorry we have been missing for so so so long, life has just been more crazy than usual lately and blogging fell into the deep misty background :(
BUT! I'm back now!

My life has done a 180 flip since I was last around and things are crazy, haywire, bonkers.. and every other word in that category. I'm focused on finishing school as soon as possible and getting a job now. Over the past few months, I have been working on gaining my independence and let me tell you, it feels AMAZING!

I will be back everyday this week with some more updating and some of my moms delicious new recipes. Are you excited?? I am!!

Wish List

I've seen a lot of wish list floating around this week and now I'm jumping in on this train. I don't know how to make it all pretty and edited but I hope you enjoy my picks :)

I've been wanting an instax camera for too long! This one is so cute, I lovers it.

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Do you have a Holiday wishlist?
If so, leave your linky so I can check it out!

Because I like to be the last in line...

 A-Z of ma ma ma ME!

A. Age: 20
B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore that you hate: Dishes are my enemy.

D. Dogs: Yes, please?
E. Essential start to your day: Sweet baby talks.
 F. Favorite color: Purple nurple.
G. Gold or Silver: Depends, I really like both.

H. Height: 5’7

I. Instruments you play: Working on the guitar.

J. Job title: Super mom.

 K. Kids: Bryce Dorian

L. Live: California love.
M. Mother’s name: Leslye
N. Nicknames: Mila, Mama Mila, hobo, hoochie.
O. Overnight hospital stays: When I was ten and when I had Bryce.

P. Pet peeves: Bad drivers.

Q. Quote from a movie: “I don't know how to put this, but I'm kind of a big deal"
R. Right or left handed: Righty!
S. Siblings: 5 brothers.
U. Underwear: Yessss..
V. Vegetable you hate: Mushrooms, icccck.

W. What makes you run late: I hate being late.
X. X-Rays you’ve had: Just my teeth.
Y. Yummy food that you make: Potatoes

Z. Zoo animal: PANDA!

Getting back into my groove.

I fell out this week.
Sunday was much harder for me then I could have ever predicted. I was only 10 years old on 9/11, and now 10 years later, I have fully come to terms with what has happened. I read everyone's post and cried. Watching tv made me cry, thinking made me cry, pretty much everything made me cry. So I packed up Bryce and walked to the park in an attempt to clear my head.

It was so lovely at first. It was beautiful outside and lots of people were saying hello and being protective of my baby. There was a sweet looking family playing soccer in the grass, when I passed them by with my stroller they just stared at me... When I found a place in the grass for Bryce to explore, they watched me even harder. I'm not sure what their problem was but I can promise them that even though this baby is white, I was the one who carried him for 9 months and pushed him out.

When Beep and I returned to the house, we found that papa and grandpa had almost been arrested! Long story short. the police were very paranoid on this day.

All of these things had me down. When I was finally feel better, I watched  Miss Universe. bad idea. These women were so beautiful and so in shape. They made me feel like a potato sack. I must say, I was routing for Miss Angola and I'm so happy she won!

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The night was harsh, I beat myself up pretty bad. Today has been better, I'm working on acceptance and improvement. I have to know my own beauty, so everyone else can see it. After my fall back, I'm ready to start loving me again :)

If I had a whole day to myself...

I'd watch all three extended versions of Lord of the Rings.

 

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I would eat endless amounts of yums and not gain a pound.

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I would watch all my lame reality T.V. shows with no judgment.

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But I would miss these cuties too much.

What would you do if you had a day to yourself?

Finding my blogger self.

I really enjoy reading everyone's blogs, it's so exciting to me to find someone new and see what their hobbies are and how different there lives are from mine. Most of my blogger friends have got it all figured out, but I'm still struggling. I can't decide between all my different hobbies and loves. I try to blog about them all but then I end up feeling all scattered, but that's how I always feel, ha. I adore fashion, and creating new recipes is a pleasure, and of course my friends and family are my loves but I'm no master at one craft. In reality this is more then a blogger issue, I'm still trying to decide what I want to do with my life other than be a mama and wifey. I hope wisdom really does come with age! 

On a much happier note, I want to let everyone know who may read this post, that you all have amazing blogs! I really try to get a glimpse at the content of all the blogs I'm following, and I always enjoy.

Thanks so much for sharing your creative minds with us.

Learn something new Tuesday.

I'm so excited to participate in Learn something new Tuesday .

Here are my answers!

1. If you could be friends with any one reality show star, who would it be?

I must admit that I love reality t.v. as much I try not to, I can't avoid it. Nene from the Real Housewives of Atlanta seems so entertaining, I'd like to hang with her and just laugh, laugh, laugh.

2. What is your favorite flavor coffee creamer? 

Caramel, mmmm:)

3. Do you have a favorite pizza place? What is it and why?

Escape From New York Pizza in San Fransisco! I miss working there and getting free pizza whenever.

4. Do you have any family traditions?

I don't have too many traditions with my new family, but I have tons with my mama and brothers. On Sundays, my mom will cook a big meal and we will watch movies and play games, we still do this actually, ha.

5. What is your favorite crafty type thing to do?

Knit, knit, knit.

6. Do you like to have pictures taken of you or do you like to be the one taking them?

I like to take the pictures, but I'm no good at it.

I left my heart in San Francisco

 

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The first time I vacationed in SF over 10 years ago, I knew that it was the place I was meant to be. It was so amazing to see so much love and acceptance of difference and change. As soon as summer was over after graduation, I packed up and moved to the big beautiful city. I was in love! I lived in the heart of the city in a big Victorian house, I got to see my baby brother everyday (I moved in with him and his adopted parents) and there was endless amounts of fresh organic yums to eat. 

Only one thing was missing. I had fallen in love with Jesse during the summer and had to leave him behind to follow my dreams. It was hard, but we made it work. He would come and visit at least once a month and I never felt happier.

Soon things got difficult for me again. I was attending community college way across town from where we lived and it could only get into night classes. During the day taking public transportation is no problem, but at night it's a whole other story. On two different occasions I was sexually assaulted and one time I was followed home. I could deal with people trying to sell me drugs. I could deal with homeless people cursing at me. But this, I could not deal with. 

I feel like maybe I was just too young to be on my own like that. I came from such a small town and ended up in such a big city. So I moved back to Southern California and moved in with Jesse, (we were now engaged by this point) and started a new life here. I always hold San Fran so close to my heart, I still feel like I'm meant to be there. We've talked about moving back because I think it's the perfect place to raise kids since it's so diverse, so we shall see. 

WOW! It felt so good to share that, kinda like a weight off my shoulders :)

What's your dream city?

Secrets, secrets secrets

I started this blog as an open space to free my mind. A place where, for once in my life I don't have to hold back what I want to say. Yet, I still find myself over editing everything I say, I've been doing it for so long now that it's a habit. It's a good and bad thing I'd say. Offending people is not cool but not being able to express myself properly is even less fun. I've always been a secretive person, not in a bad way, I just never let people know how I'm feeling. The "I'm fine girl".

I'm going to add being more open to my June list!

How do all you ladies deal with opening up?

Speaking of Gaga

As always, Gaga is getting some bad publicity but for some reason I've been very defensive of her.

I still can't figure out exactly what it is but I know that I absolutely love the messages she sends for equality. 

Of course you should be able to love who ever you want 

A different lover is not a sin, believe capital H-I-M

But I don't understand why I feel the constant need to defend the crazy things.

Gaga is unique (of course), there is really no one else like her and I admire that. Some people say that she overdoes it, and I'd agree with that but I also think that that is what makes her so unique. She knows who she is(for the time being) and she keeps pushing herself to a new level.

Sometimes I feel trapped in a box

People telling me what to do, what to wear and how to act. I know it's mostly because age but it's still bothers me. It feels like I'm not my own person or I don't even have the wiggle room to create a person I could be.

Lady Gaga is just who she wants to be and that's why I admire her.

I don't want to look or dress like her, I just want the confidence she has to be who she wants to be.

I don't know if this makes any sense, but I LOVE this blog for giving me this opportunity to express myself without judgment.

The ABC's of Miss Mila Ali

Although this kinda reminds me of my myspace days, it's a great way to get to know facts about new people.

So here goes it.

A= Available:

Nope, married to the most wonderful man<3

 

B= Best Friend:

 Karissa!

 

C= Cake or pie:

 I'm a cake girl, yummm.

 

D= Drink of choice:

Frappuccino, please :)

E= Essential item you use everyday:

 My lapytopy.

 

F= Favorite color:

PURPLE! 

 

G= Gummy bears or worms:

MMM, I love sour worms. 

 

H= Hometown:

Yucaipa, CA.  

 

I= Indulgences:

Chocolate. 

 

J= January or February:

Neither, haha. 

 

K= Kids and Names:

 Bryce!

 

L= Life is incomplete without?:

My hubbs, BryceBryce and The Office

M= Marriage date:

April 19, 2010 

 

N= Number of siblings:

4 brothers, I'm the only girl :) 

1 soul sister though 

 

O= Oranges or apples:

Apples and peanut butter. 

 

P= Phobias or Fears:

Weird ones... 

I'm afraid of things scratching my nails

and the feeling of cotton in my mouth.

Q= Favorite Quote:

"I'm kind of a big deal, people know me..." 

 

R= Reason to smile:

My Bryce baby

 

S= Season:

Spring!

 

T= Tag 3 or 4 people:

Tag, you're it

Tag, you're it

Tag, you're it

hehe:)

 

U= Unknown fact about me :.

I'm weird, but is that really unknown? I think not!

V= Vegetable you don't like:

Icky mushrooms. 

 

W= Worst habit:

Overthinking 

 

X= X-rays:

Do your eyes count?

 

Y= Your favorite food:

SUSHI! and ice cream 

 

Z= Zodiac Sign:

Sagittarius 

 

 

You should do a survey too, so I can get to know you better!